life... revisited...

bring gay or bi... makes any difference?

2007-03-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

it beats me to ponder.... does it seriously make any difference to be a gay or a bi? either way you will somehow or rather be mixing with people who are just not straight.... besides.... i wonder if it does make any much of a difference afterall...

that aside.... got to know or rather felt heart ached to see a very close friend turning out to be a bi-sexual.... and the fact that i am around him for the past 7 to 8 years makes me feel more worse... not that we are in any way at fault.... but deep inside my egos.... i have to admit i do find a liking in him to a certain extend... which is very true till this point in time.... no matter what, it is an undeniable fact afterall....

after a few days of feeling down i have come to overcome this feeling and began to accept him as who he is... so i am back to feeling normal already... still it lingers to know why he kept it so under the table for such a long time before revealing his deepest sexuality and at the same time his boyfriend...

Blades.... + Home furnishings...

2007-02-22T10:28:00.000+08:00

Gilette Fusion

Saw the ads of this new Gillette 5 blades + 1 trimmer at City hall station…. Makes me feel so orange… like the bright colour scheme…. Will consider getting it though the price is real steep for shaving blades… but the idea of fixing in a trimming blade makes it something I wanna get since I am going Army soon…

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Frames @ IKEA…

Thinking of getting another few pieces of the frames, yet not very decided yet… will see how if should get the frames first of wait for the final outcome of my desktop soon…. I am still not very sure if I will be getting a notebook…. If I am then my desktop will be saying goodbye for now…. Which means I will have more space to put my stuff…. And that will mean time to clear up clutters on my desktop for good…. Whichever comes first… it is still a good thing…. And will finish up the Antonius storage system by this month hopefully…. Going for the IKEA Home Furnishings Sale Preview this Friday morning… yay! I think this is the time of the year where they will be clearing out old stocks or discontinued items to make room for new products this year. What about the fate of my shoe rack? Err well… I might just put it out in the corridor for plants or let mum have it for shoes…. Shall wait and see… there is ample of ways to use it well. Will be clearing out my toyogo cd containers – maybe pass them to grandma to put her medications… need some cataloging to be done – hopefully by this week..

3 blades vs 5 blades....

2007-02-17T10:05:00.000+08:00

went to giant at vivomart and saw this interesting new product by Gillette.... - Gillette Fusion.... it has 2 types... one is a manual operated shaver while the other is a battery operated shaver. So which do u think is better... and even more intriguing is.... why not compare 3 blades versus 5 blades?

a nice combination yea? probably... since the new product has this trimmer thing that can help you trim ur sideburns... - probably a good tool since i am enlisting in the army and will probably need something like that.... and i need it fast too... the down side is... with more blades means more expensive cartridges? probably so.... but the colours of the product is just so nice in orange and blue metallic tint.... will get one after the cny period.... to experience a much closer shave... and always remember to use it with a shaving gel and aftershave... it works well....

back on the weekly dock...

2007-02-12T08:42:00.000+08:00

once again... got my things sorted out.... now i am back to blog.... back to my old ways of mass blogging.... devoting blogs to plants.... trashing back on life... my usual blog of bitching and the list goes on.... here we are... back to Spring...

bought a plant yesterday at IKEA Tampines... first time i decided i wanted to do abit of gardening since i find the corridor abit of a boring.... heading to school soon... the topic of the week is plants...

somehow it intrigues me why humans are so into planting.... especially during festive seasons.... as it seems.... they have nothing else to do except continue with planitng non stop?

from what i guess... for the past many years.... plants have become part of our lives and especially so in Singapore where it is labelled - Garden City.... which is true in a way... with instant plants growing and sprouting everywhere... you name it and you will find it.... especially in the city areas....

as for the urban areas.... plants can be seen from apartment blocks... though not many have this habit of growing plants... however, you will see plants everywhere especially cheap ones...

so yea.... as a slip short conclusion... plants beautify our surroundings and make the place we live in a better one...

weekday: thoughts

2006-07-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since my last entry to this blog... been busy for the past few days of this week working on school work and assignments... and trying to fix appointments for my upcoming projects as well as working out how best i can better manage my personal life and certain aspects of finances in life....

with all this more or less sorted out... i feel more at east and have a better objective towards what i am looking at for the next half a year to come... It may not appear as a smooth ride with bumps along the way... however, i believe it will be beneficial to me in the long run if i know how best to manage it well....

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With the beginning of year 3 in Nursing... it seems things just got interesting... with the specialised skills which i pick up along the way... with plaster cast being the topic of the day... not here... maybe soon i will be adding an article on plaster cast... so that... those who have been wondering what is that thing on your friends limbs will have a rough idea what this sort of thing does and how it helps...

weekend posting: credit cards... debit cards...

2006-06-24T21:04:00.000+08:00

with the great singapore sales still coming on... i guess... it might make some sense to talk about cards... for myself... i hold a number of debit cards... for the various bank accounts i have for different of my expenses... with the different banks... which will be the case till late 2006... anyways... i find that... after entering into the foray of debit cards since 2002... i realise that... it is always good to look at what the cards have to offer before even considering to sign up for one... - even if it give u alot of waiver in terms of membership fees. WHat matters more is how much of perks they have for the dollars you spend with them... for that instance... - CapitaCard... It gives u discount at slected retailers at capitaMalls - malls managed by CapitalMall Trust... as well as for anything you spend offline - you get 0.3% rebate which you use to redeem on purchases at participating capitaCard merchants...

for yours truely... i have plenty of clothes... thus, it makes little sense for me to spend alot of my time shopping either... especially when i don't get to wear them often either... coming to think of having the capitacard... i guess it has the pros and cons... pro being that... i get to buy things with earning cash and using these cash to redeem clothes if i want to... well... on the other hand... the cons being that... i can't redeem other things... - like say... vouchers? anyways, i still find it worthwhile investment...

what will i do with my other cards? well i will just cancel them when i they expire and focus on a minimal number of cards i have on hand. which makes alot more perfect sense to do too!

Health: Cardiac Catheterization

2006-06-21T11:59:00.000+08:00

something for a read about certain heart procedures...

What is cardiac catheterization?

This is a procedure done on the heart. In it, a doctor inserts a thin plastic tube (catheter) (KATH'eh-ter) into an artery or vein in the arm or leg. From there it can be advanced into the chambers of the heart or into the coronary arteries.

This test can measure blood pressure within the heart and how much oxygen is in the blood. It's also used to get information about the pumping ability of the heart muscle. Catheters are also used to inject dye into the coronary arteries. This is called coronary angiography (an"je-OG'rah-fe) or coronary arteriography (ar-te"re-OG'rah-fe). Catheters with a balloon on the tip are used in the procedure called percutaneous transluminal coronary angioplasty (per"ku-TA'ne-us tranz-LU'min-al KOR'o-nair-e AN'je-o-plas-te) (PTCA). Catheterization is also done on infants and children to examine or treat congenital (kon-JEN'ih-tal) heart defects.

source: American Heart Association

Health: Cholecystectomy

2006-06-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

What happens when u realise that your gallbladder has stones? Well... to find out... it is best to see the doctor... afterall, he does the diagnosis... so... basically... this is something to chew on about cholecystectomy...

Laparoscopic Cholecystectomy

The gallbladder is a pear-shaped organ that sits beneath the liver in the right-upper abdomen. It's function is to store bile. It is attached to the bile ducts that come from the liver. These ducts carry bile from the liver to the gallbladder and intestine where the bile helps digest food. The gallbladder is not necessary to maintain good health.

Gallstones
Gallstones usually form in the gallbladder because of excessive cholesterol in bile. They are a very common medical problem. When they cause pain or other problems, treatment is usually needed. The removal of the gallbladder is one of the most common types of surgery done in this country. In the past, open abdominal surgery was the standard treatment. This procedure required a 3 to 7 day stay in the hospital and a 3 to 7 inch incision and scar on the abdomen.

Laparoscopy
Most females have heard of laparoscopy, also known as "bellybutton" or "Band-Aid" surgery. Gynecologists have long used this technique to tie the Fallopian tubes and to inspect the female reproductive organs. Now the use of laparoscopy has been expanded to include removing a diseased gallbladder. With new video technology, the laparoscope has become a miniature television camera. Powerful magnification is now possible, showing the intestinal organs in great detail.

Laparoscopic Cholecystectomy
A cholecystectomy is the surgical removal of the gallbladder. Using advanced laparoscopic technology, it is now possible to remove the gallbladder through a tiny incision at the navel. The technique is performed as follows. The patient receives general anesthesia. Then a small incision is made at the navel (point A) and a thin tube carrying the video camera is inserted. The surgeon inflates the abdomen with carbon dioxide, a harmless gas, for easier viewing and to provide room for the surgery to be performed. Next, two needle-like instruments are inserted (points B). These instruments serve as tiny hands within the abdomen. They can pick up the gallbladder, move intestines around, and generally assist the surgeon. Finally, several different instruments are inserted (point C) to clip the gallbladder artery and bile duct, and to safely dissect and remove the gallbladder and stones. When the gallbladder is freed, it is then teased out of the tiny navel incision. The entire procedure normally takes 30 to 60 minutes. The three puncture wounds require no stitches and may leave very slight blemishes. The navel incision is barely visible.

source: Jackson Gastroenterology

Health: Hernias

2006-06-17T21:09:00.000+08:00

Something for a thought before i end today... though i am kind of down with some throat problem.. and while reading men's health... i found this interesting... about hernias... yea... perhaps many of us are just unaware of what this thing is...so here's something to shed some light about hernias... there are many types... i am not going to go into details... you can either google for them or find them here ...

What Are Hernias?
A hernia (pronounced: hur-nee-uh) is an opening or weakness in the wall of a muscle, tissue, or membrane that normally holds an organ in place. If the opening or weakness is large enough, a portion of the organ may be able to poke through the hole. Imagine an inner tube poking through a hole in an old tire - that's what a hernia is like.

Hernias happen more frequently in certain parts of the body, like the abdomen, groin and upper thigh area, and belly button area. They also can happen in any place where you may have had an incision from surgery.

How Do People Get Hernias?
It might take a long time for a hernia to develop or it might develop suddenly. Hernias are caused by a combination of muscle weakness and strain, although the cause of the weakness and the type of strain may vary. Hernias are actually more common in babies and toddlers. And most teens who are diagnosed with a hernia actually have had a weakness of the muscles or other abdominal tissues from birth (called a congenital defect). In these cases, straining your muscles doesn't cause the hernia; it only makes the hernia more apparent (and painful!).

Here are some types of strain on the body that may induce hernias:

* obesity or sudden weight gain
* lifting heavy objects
* diarrhea or constipation
* persistent coughing or sneezing
* pregnancy

These types of strain on their own probably won't give you a hernia. But when they team up with a weak muscle, a hernia is more likely to result.

Many hernias are discovered during routine physical exams. If you're a guy, you may have had a physical exam where your doctor gave you a testicular exam and checked your testicles for a hernia. By placing a finger at the top of your scrotum and asking you to cough, the doctor can feel if you have a hernia.

It's good for girls to know about hernias, too, because they can affect you, especially if you've been pregnant or are obese. A doctor can check for any possible hernias in girls by gently pressing on the organs or looking for possible signs during an examination.

weekend posting: Magazines...

2006-06-17T13:46:00.000+08:00

I have a keen interest in reading magazines... apart from the usual thick novels and books which i will induge in reading... I keep a collection of magazines which i will buy on a monthly basis... and just store them together until i have the time to browse through them...

The magazines which i read range from Men's Health (Singapore Ed), to Get Creative (Australia Craft Mag - by Spotlight), to Aromatheraphy (a part work series), Ezy Health and Beauty (a free distribution mag). Though it may not sound like alot... but it does contain a broad range of things from health to beauty to even hobbies. I like working on craft work too. Thus, the reason why i decided to read mag on craft too. During my secondary sch years, i read reader's Digest and Time Mag... occasionally National Geographic Mag and Eat! mag as well... However, as time went by... flavours change too... thus the change took place.

apart from reading... i would spend some hanging out with friends for coffee on weekends when possible. Though, sometimes... i prefer to stay home to rest and indulge in reading. It's a good way to pass time instead of wasting them away on things which are not conductive. And of course, it would be nice to engage in some sports on a sunny saturday if possible. Though not at the moment as i came down with a slight flu this morning and i have to finish quite a handful of assignment though i did not go for my community first aid teaching.

which means i have to get my bumps together and back to work on the owlery site among other things i have to complete for this week... i know i am lazy and dragging my agenda at times... haha

Health: Quinsy...

2006-06-17T08:01:00.000+08:00

Googled for this - Quinsy...

Definition
Quinsy is an abscess between the back of the tonsil and the wall of the throat. It’s also known as a peritonsillar abscess. It happens when infection spreads from a swollen tonsil to the area around it, usually during a severe case of tonsillitis.

The symptoms of quinsy are similar to tonsillitis and include:

a worsening sore throat, usually on one side,
fever,
difficulty opening the mouth
difficulty swallowing
drooling rather than swallowing your own saliva and
swelling of the face and neck.
Quinsy is now rare because most people get effective treatment for tonsillitis early enough to prevent it. Quincy may be suspected if you have a sore throat that gets a lot worse very quickly, or tonsillitis with more severe symptoms than normal.

Quinsy is treated in hospital. The abscess that has formed has to be aspirated (the pus is sucked out) and antibiotics may be needed to prevent the infection spreading.

An operation to remove the tonsils (tonsillectomy) may be recommended a few months after quinsy.

came across this at work yesterday... thought it would interesting to share... since... well.. i feel i am having some kind of throat inflammation now... argh... this morning i threw up blood via my nostril and then... i had quite a bad throat on my right side... wonder how i am gonna get well enough to teach first aid later... might end up resting in bed at home later instead...

life: gay vs straight...

2006-06-13T23:26:00.000+08:00

in the spate of events of the recent arrest of a guy who lead double lives... in a narcotics drug crime... i feel... well.. it's really annoying the way the media has played the story big... making everything and anything related to gays very BIG news... WHat's exactly wrong with them i wonder... as if there is nothing "Hot Topic" to ramble about. It just creates another layer of euphoria over the gay issues... well... regardless of my sexuality... i'm just against the way things are being posted with refernece to the way they blow up inproportioned news... just to create a mass of phobias... Anyways, you can read about the entire article here ->

June 9, 2006
ENTRAPMENT:
Lawyers say narcotics officers crossed the line in quest to nab offender, but any method of entrapment is legal here
By Stephanie Yap

PHOTO: MUGILAN RAJASEGERAN

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CATCHING CRIMINALS RED-HANDED
PASSING time in an Internet chatroom one night, Adrian Yeo met a man called Joe. Over the following few days, Joe was quite persistent, sending him SMS messages asking if he had drugs, and if he wanted to meet up 'to have fun'.
According to Yeo's mitigation plea submitted in court, he refused the first few times. Eventually, the 26-year-old trainee doctor gave in and met Joe, and another man, Jacob, at a Hotel 81, on April Fools Day this year.

When he arrived at the hotel, he got a nasty surprise. Both men turned out to be undercover Central Narcotics Bureau (CNB) officers, who found 0.16g of methamphetamine on him.

Arrested for drug possession, Yeo was sentenced to eight months in jail on Wednesday. The time in prison requires him to break a $400,000 five-year bond with the Government, and casts a shadow on his medical career.

CNB has often been known to employ the same methods it used to catch Yeo.

Said CNB spokesman Amelia Oh: 'CNB is aware that drug offenders use various means to conduct their illegal activities and have come across instances of some of them using the Internet to do so.

'Based on intelligence gathered and feedback received, CNB will monitor channels of information, including chatrooms, to detect and apprehend drug offenders.'

Unlike countries such as the United States and Canada, where evidence gathered through 'excessive' entrapment can be thrown out of court, evidence obtained through any method of entrapment is lawful in Singapore.

Entrapment is often used when the authorities know an individual is committing an offence, but cannot catch him in the act, said retired police detective Lionel de Souza.

'It can be difficult to catch a person red-handed even if you already have information that he is breaking the law.

'In the case of drug possession, you can invite him to meet you and hope he arrives with drugs,' he said.

However, Yeo's lawyer, Mr Kertar Singh, argued that CNB officers overstepped a boundary.

'Yes, the whole exercise is not illegal, but in all fairness what was done by CNB was not appropriate.

'They went into the chatline and lured people in by saying certain things. An innocent, naive person might find himself in this kind of situation, then get caught,' he said.

According to Yeo's mitigation presented in court, he initially refused the undercover officer's requests to meet him. While he admitted to the officer he had drugs, he said they were for his own consumption only.

Yeo finally accepted an invitation to meet Joe and Joe's boyfriend for sex at the Bencoolen Street Hotel 81 on April 1. Joe told Yeo he had some Ecstasy, and asked if Yeo had drugs. Yeo said he would bring some.

While lawyers agree some entrapment is necessary for law enforcement, they say officers should not tempt an otherwise unwilling person to commit a crime.

'I don't think officers should be encouraging people to commit offences. I'm very uncomfortable with that,' said Mr Peter Low, chairman of the Law Society's criminal practice committee.

Mr Subhas Anandan, president of the Association of Criminal Lawyers of Singapore, agreed.

'Of course, a certain degree of entrapment should be allowed, otherwise you can't catch crooks. But they mustn't cross the line.'

CNB did cross the line, in Mr Anandan's opinion, in a 2003 case in which insurance agent Teo Ya Lin was pressed by an undercover CNB officer to obtain an Ecstasy pill for him, promising to buy a big policy from her in return. Teo got him a pill, for which she was sentenced to six years and three months in jail.

'This girl had no intention of selling drugs until she was repeatedly persuaded by the officer. She would not under normal circumstances be a trafficker. The temptation is put forward,' said Mr Anandan.

The veteran defence lawyer, who has personally seen three cases of excessive entrapment in the past year, believes it is a growing problem.

'It has come to a stage where people are talking about it. I can't give figures offhand, but the number is enough to be a little bit scary,' he said.

The Association of Criminal Lawyers plans to put the entrapment issue to the Government in a paper it is preparing, which Mr Anandan estimates will be ready in a month or two.

Mr Low said the Law Society is not currently looking into the issue as it is working on capital punishment reform.

'However, entrapment law reform would be timely,' he said.

Both lawyers point out that entrapment laws were revised in 2001 in Britain, on which Singapore models its legal system.

In an October 2001 landmark case, the House of Lords ruled that it was 'simply not acceptable that the state, through its agents, should lure its citizens into committing acts forbidden by the law and then seek to prosecute them for doing so'.

The case involved Spencer Grant Looseley, who was approached several times by an undercover police officer who tried to get him to sell drugs.

Reform in Singapore may take a while yet, but Mr Anandan suggested in the meantime, judges can indicate in their verdict their dissatisfaction with the current entrapment laws, in the hope of inspiring legislative change.

'Parliament must do something. For the judiciary, their hands are tied as the law is very clear.'

ysteph@sph.com.sg

more links and newspaper articles

http://commentarysingapore.blogspot.com/2006/06/interesting-case.html

http://forums.delphiforums.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=sammyboymod&msg=107771.1
http://forums.delphiforums.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=sammyboymod&msg=107909.1
http://forums.delphiforums.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=sammyboymod&msg=108003.1
http://forums.delphiforums.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=sammyboymod&msg=107938.21
http://forums.delphiforums.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=sammyboymod&msg=107995.1
http://forums.delphiforums.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=sammyboymod&msg=107902.1

http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/2006/06/all_gay_people_.html#comments
http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/2006/06/browncast_the_m_1.html#comments
http://mrdrinkalot.blogspot.com/2006/06/entrapment.html
http://tomorrow.sg/archives/2006/06/09/entrapment.html#comment

http://www.sgboy.com/sgboyx/index.php?showtopic=21110

http://forums.hardwarezone.com/showthread.php?t=1320696

http://www.yawningbread.org/arch_2006/yax-605.htm

http://www.yawningbread.org/arch_2006/yax-606.htm

http://ballsy.wordpress.com/2006/06/10/the-terms-of-entrapment/#comments

newspaper articles

HUMAN beings are not perfect creatures. We have inherent weaknesses and whether we succumb to them, resulting in negative acts, depends on our education, values, external influences and temptation.
I don't think the Central Narcotics Bureau (CNB) should be playing the devil's role and going all out to persistently tempt the weak to commit an offence and then apprehending them (trainee doctor Adrian Yeo, in the latest case) in the name of law and order.

Such tactics have no place in a civilised society.

Jackie Lau Wai Wan (Ms)

taken directly from: http://chrisloup.livejournal.com/183748.html

weekend posting: checking and replying e-mails...

2006-06-11T12:36:00.000+08:00

it is ever so common that we use e-mail as a way of communicating with friends we know. And i can't imagine that i end up spending hours after hours browing through the e-mails and sometimes forgetting to reply them. Only to return days or months later to response back to the e-mails. There were times where there is nothing which i have in mind to reply, thus the reason for not wanting to make a response.

As for today... it seems more of a clean sweep for me. Sweeping through the files which i want them backed up as my hard drive is running out of valuable space and slowing down loads due to the lack of disk space. And to decide between using DVD vs CD-R is yet another question to ponder... No doubt that DVD will allow me to save loads of space... which yields a high volume of disk space and less wasteage... maybe... in time to come... backing up using dual DVD will be an even better option to consider... probably next yr or the years to come... anyways.. back to backing up files... ciao...

Tags: communication

weekend posting: midnite shopping...

2006-06-11T01:55:00.000+08:00

was such a interesting weekend to end up doing midnite shopping on a friday and saturday night... was out with Wee last night for dinner at a Restaurant at Marina Square - by the name of Moon something... had escargo... for the 2nd time... so nice and yummy... really worth trying... their lobster also not bad wor... then we went to Harvy Norman to do some light shopping and i noticed that Starbucks will be opening at Millenia Walk.. perhaps a relocation of the existing store within the premise... Then we took a Bus to Bugis Junction to continue will the Midnight shopping and took the 2nd last train home... He bought quite abit of things though the crowd was not that great... further more... i had nothing in mind to shop for... thus i did not buy a single thing...

then today... was on a triple date... - it was Tea with Richard Kor Kor... haha... then went to meet up with a China friend for dinner... had a good chat before heading over to meet up with Amanda for a 2nd midnight shopping nite... haha... this time... she spend $200 ++ at Precious Thots... which some is for her friends and i did not buy anything coz it was a little out of my budget to get anything.. anyways, overall was very nice to shop... then we stroll to Bugis to take train home... it was slightly drizzling... and well... to conclude... Midnight shopping is a fun way to shop... and good to see loads of value bargains!

tags: shopping

weekend posting: friends...

2006-06-10T11:47:00.000+08:00

Times flies.. new friends made... old friends go... it's a life cycle of sorts... whether we make and break friendships... with people we know... perhaps for either a short or long period of time...

maybe, with time... and maturation... a better understanding of the friendship cycle will enable a more interesting friendship to grow...

Tags: friends

life.. revisited...: introduction

2006-06-08T23:21:00.000+08:00

in life... many things just goes unpredicted... besides that... i guess prevention is also possible if we know how to go about dealing with it. Besides, there is this saying... nothing is impossible unless we do not give it a try. And i truely believe in this saying for many things, happens for a reason... just like a cause has an effect and the chain of reaction goes on... never ending...

I have decided to make a come back to blogspot... to blog occasionally about the various views i have... perhaps, this will serve me better in certain ways while i still maintain my LiveJournal Blog as well as my personal site. As a whole, these various areas will cover slightly different posts... with this mainly dealing with my train of thoughts while my main blog deals with every thing on a daily basis.

dreamzLand: 1 March, 2006

2006-03-01T10:09:00.000+08:00

life's just seems wierd... maybe i am just thinking too much... anyways... well... i'm trying hard not to think too much and stay focus on track...

anyways... has this dream about KFC last nite... our class (my sec 4 class) had this function at a KFC and i was there to do the arrangement of seats for 30 over of us... so it was quite an amusing and interesting thing... the funniest part is... it turns out my current sec sch principal - Mrs Oh was the one in charge of this special function... haha... anyways in the imaginary dream i saw Miss Lily Koh... coincidentally she had actually e-mail me after she received a e-Card from me for her birthday... haha... glad she had liked it alot.

dreamzLand: Feb 18, 2006

2006-02-19T10:25:00.000+08:00

wierdly... i dream of the funniest of funniest things... dream of him telling me about his plans over the phone for the upcoming weekend and on monday...

he told me he went with his friend to watch brokeback mountain then today he will be going to eat pizza hut and something else... then on monday... he's meeting his friend for pizza hut again... it just all sounds so wierd and funny... and somehow i link back to him telling me "you won't want to see me cry.. it is very scary..." which was wat he told me last nite on SMS.... anyways... wierd wierd dreams... just as i thot i have already somehow moved on to other matters in life... haha...

dreamzLand : Jan 25, 2006

2006-01-26T10:25:00.000+08:00

i had this funny dream last nite... and to have it more wierd is... i dream of W... it was not those dreams which i use to dream about in the past... it has to do with some kind of breakup between me and him... in the story... we were actually discussing about our impending break up. the wierd thing to occur is that we had a quite mutual break up and there after i woke up from my dream... and i had my mind thinking... why? it's so wierd... i am not even dating W and how come a break up will come about... anyways... was it an omen of something coming up? Maybe? coz today my in Course assessment(ICA)did not go well as per what i had wished it for.

Anyways, hopefully tmr will be a better day for me... as for what's to come in 2006... it will be a long journey to find out...

dreamzLand: Dec 15 - 16, 2005

2005-12-17T09:12:00.000+08:00

past 2 days dreamt of two different incidences... the first night i dream of Alvin... i was sleeping next to him and suddenly i woke up seeing him next to me and we chatted for quite abit.

on the second night, i dream of shopping at popular bookstore and realised that they have expanded the magazine section. moreover, the ironic thing that i made a complain abt the book which i orderd and was funny to see stanley as well as derek there... also.. the wierd thing is to be served by these 2... also on the other separate dream... i saw myself visitng a shop which i asked the staff if they needed tailors or alteration people. he told me to get the application form from starbucks... wierd isn't it? unless the boutique is owned by starbucks. haha

dreamzLand :: Dec 5, 2005

2005-12-06T16:44:00.000+08:00

Had a dream which was so funny... i dream of seeing Madam Saleha and Mr Andy Ong... yea.. one is my sec 4 form teacher... the other is my current psychology lectuer... i dream of seeing him in school for my psychology supp paper revision where i was seeking advice from him... then madam saleha appeared out of nowhere and asked for the "Gay Lounge key"... i was in shock actually... anyways, moments later... came the other scene where i saw Andy Ong at the school's shopping archase getting some under briefs. He was looking at the low waist cut ones. I was there to find him to clarify some doubts i have for the psychology exam...

am i too stressed up with the upcoming test on friday or? beats me...

dreamzLand :: Nov 12, 2005

2005-11-13T10:44:00.000+08:00

Had many thoughts ever since i got into bed last night... first, it was a dream of mummy getting diabetes... then it was dream of parents quarreling non stop... haiz... dun know why such dreams are developing... slightly saded by them... anyways, also dream of Elwen... dun know what we did... haha... shss... dun think i'll go into detail for that... haha

dreamzLand :: October 31, 2005

2005-11-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

had a dream about WL... dun know why also... just happen to think of him... it is definitely very wierd... as it seems to be... i don't know why he will post on MSN that he is going KL for 4 days... do i really miss him? i don;t know... on the other hand... i'm having some interest in someone else... but i am very unsure of myself as of what happened to him and his bf... i dun want to be a third party which i know i will not be... coz i keep a safe distance from certain aspects... but i know my limits... and it's a mutual thing...

life is just too messy to be unmessy... nights back i dream of MIss tan giving me a guitar... an instrument which i would love to hold in my hands in the near future... might be getting it next time after i have the time to learn guitar...

dreamzLand: October 18, 2005

2005-10-20T00:54:00.000+08:00

had 2 dreams in a row... one was of grandma passed away while we went out together.. dun know what happen also... she suddenly just collapse and i did tried to resus her... but... to no availl haiz... so sad... felt like crying... anyways... it's a wake up call to me for me to treasure her while she goes through her golden years...

as for the 2nd dream is about WL... the two of us broke up... becoz of something happen... also dun know what la... and it seems like both of us were quite sad... anyways... i have to say i am touched and amused by his sms of good nite at 1am last nite... - Oct 18...

dreamzLand: October 15

2005-10-15T08:52:00.000+08:00

i had a wierd dream... this one concerns a break up with WL... anyways... not even dating him... so it is kind of funny also...

we were out on one day... then things got a bit odd at the food court... he ordered some food while i did my ordering too... then moments later, when his food arrived we started to argue... and it led on even after dinner while we were at the bus stop...

at the bus stop he was busily engaged in a phone conversation... duh... then it led on to the final moment - a break up... he told me... we don't click at all... after spending so much time together.. he feels... we should just break up and not keep in contact... i took it slowy and steadily... then he left the bus we board together... then i went after him... he quickly got on the bus and i followed suit... then he asked me... "what's this for? i have already said my stance that i want a break up... so don't keep bugging me!"... then... i walked away in shock and awe and tears dropped... quite sad... anyways... dun wanna think abt it... i guess that's life... for now... i'm just counting my days... and focus on my exams... hope that the JB trip next mth will be enjoyable and allow me to know him better...

dreamzLand : Oct 4, 2005

2005-10-05T08:36:00.000+08:00

wierd dream... dream of favourtism... well... dun know why i get jealous juz becoz my bro got more attention from my dad.. anyways, dun wanna bother la... just a side thought bah... but it made me reflect back on many things...

dreamzLand : Sep 23 & 24, 2005

2005-09-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

I had dreams that were going around my not so in the dream relationship which at this stage in real life is not even a relationship. For that matter, it is WL appearing in my dream. As it seems, he is so ignorant and seems to be double dating… wonder what is the world coming to… perhaps I should consider letting go? Maybe, somehow I kind of think back of my ex, out of the sudden, I miss him badly… should I go meet him up for coffee someday? I don’t know… will have to see how…

dreamzLand : Sept 9, 2005

2005-09-10T09:55:00.000+08:00

i had a dream about being in the corporate world... what was i doing? a store manager with the Cold Storage group of supermarkets... yea..

it just happens that i was newly posted to the store and was very welcomed by my staff members... and i made certain policy changes within my store to reflect the values i feel should be incorporated in the staff members... and in deed, profit margins and business got better... :) whee... isn't that good news? lol... then i progress on in the corporate ladder into the reginal manager and higher up... it wasn't a good eventful journey of course... but i made it to become the manager of the managers in the supermarket division... whee!

WIERD DREAM... SEEMS LIKE AN ENTREPRENUER SIDE OF ME... LOL!

dreamzLand : Sept 7, 2005

2005-09-08T13:27:00.000+08:00

another night of waking up 3 times in the night... interesting thoughts once more... but pertaining to school i guess... not too sure what i dream of... coz it's very vague...

dreamzLand : Sept 6, 2005

2005-09-07T12:46:00.000+08:00

had a very hilarious dream.. once again... dream of the same person... WL once more... this time... it's so farney... we were out... together... then we decided to take a pic on my mobile phone then we also hug and kiss... and i happen to see his dick... lol... so wierd... in public... haha...

then... the next scene we were quite intimate in bed... wierd indeed.. anyways... spoke to him at night before i slept, don't expect such things anyways... so bitter sweet... then the other dream was about mum i guess... can't remb what exactly happen though....

dreamzLand : September 4, 2005

2005-09-04T20:19:00.000+08:00

had a dream about Wl telling me that we are dating... so hilarious... and i do hope this does not come true... coz i have no feeling for Wl at all... seriously... not keen to... haha still laughing from this dream though...

dreamzLand : Sept 2, 2005

2005-09-03T10:53:00.000+08:00

i dream of Ryan once again... haha... this time in the dream he came to look for me to tell me that he broke up with his current boyfriend... and beside that, we just chatted for a while... nothing happen... which to me.. was good...

then another dream was of the Spotlight i use to work in being resurrected... it looks the same except that... my boss was telling me... i could return to work if my mum allows... but then.. well... as what i have guessed... they will not allow me to... so well... life's like dat... sigh...

dreamzLand : August 20, 2005

2005-08-20T10:38:00.000+08:00

wonders what i have many funny dreams and thots lately... and one particular thing thta shocked me... was... father-love... dun know why...

i had this dream of being a scuba diver in a underwater aqarium... and it's in the sea kind... well wierd isn't it... for one... i am not really into sea creatures... but.. well... what happen was... i'm working on an attachment there and happen to be in night shift and saw this interesting thing happen... strangely, the control centre floats as well as the view of the fishes jumping into the air and down even the great white did the same... but the next day when i did a scan of the surrounding... i only see that everything is calm and the fishes are in place...

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another dream was moments later.. about the pics i took during the above attachment... and i was talking to cousin Rachel... and she was like scolding me... and i actually slapped her... dun know why also... just felt pissed off with her... anyways, i come to realise that I told her "he doesn't even care for me... just tells me to buy whatever i like... not even bothered to show his care and concern for me.. "... it is definitely wierd for such a dream... coz i am never close to my dad and besides... it's so wierd that such a funny dream come about.

and... also don't understnad why did i keep thinking of him in my dream? and thinking about whether he will sms me... so farney... lol

dreamzLand: August 13, 2005

2005-08-14T18:16:00.000+08:00

Had a dream about Ryan and Helmy dating... faints... wonder why such a dream came about... anyways... was pretty angry with him flying me aeroplanes 2 times in a row in 2 days... yea.. but well.. the sight of losing him doesn't really scares me.. but... it does leaves behind a lil scar... anyways... shall wait and see where nature leads me...

dreamzLand: August 9, 2005

2005-08-09T10:19:00.000+08:00

I had a dream about kissing Ryan... wonders why such happens... anyways.. the irony being that... whatever i dream about will usually not happen... yet there were moments when i had really wanted to do that... but... well... maybe not fated bah... haha... coz it's in public wor... lol... faints... haha

DreamzLand : May 30

2005-05-31T10:55:00.000+08:00

I had a dream.... it's a special dream... I was at my late godma's new home with my cousins and relatives i think... we went there to visit her... I even took a glimpse of her room... and she told me she was gonna fly to france too :P

and she also cook dinner for me... but i did not stay for dinner... coz i had to go meet up with my bf to catch a movie... lolz.. she knows that i have a bf i think... shocking... bleah, anyways, i really miss her lots... was telling mum just now... and yea... she has passed on 3years ago... on May 11...... while my bday was May 24...

she is always remembered... and i am still truely suprised that she did appear in my dream...

dreamzLand :: May 18

2005-05-18T15:42:00.000+08:00

took a short nap and had a dream... a dream in the land of the unknown with tears almost rolling down my cheeks... yea... i just woke out of the sudden... someone who is familiar came rising before me... yea.. my godma... who passed away about 3yeas ago appeared... and the song by celine dion - Goodbyes came ringing into my mind... it was a warm and touching moment... and yea... i really do miss her... 5days ago... marked her 3rd death anniversary... and 6 days time... will be my 19th birthday...

DreamzLand :: May 6

2005-05-07T10:39:00.000+08:00

I wonder why... out of a sudden... i have a strong feeling for someone... it beats me to understand why... anyways... that's besides the point... i feel... i'm more on the dark side... well, but i'm very willing to let the person go... if he is not meant for me... or am i getting too jealous easily? i don't know...

just happen that i had a bad dream last nite... i dream of a friend snatching someone i like away from me... good grief... who can i blame? I blame no one for this to have occured... firstly... he isn't mine... he is just my godbro... i love him... maybe i just have some feelings for him that's all... i didn't confess... becoz i am a shy person... so.. in the end... he was taken by another friend of mine... a good but not too close friend.

I wonder what's the world coming into... it's all so bizzare and funny... i wish for all these wierd feeling to evaporate... i want to lead a normal life... to be happy... looking forward.. and not laid back by all these lust and illusions which meant nothing... but much much more fear to me... I need to breathe and live happy with people i know... I guess, i'm just over protective of people around me... i should loosen up abit... though i know i appear relax infront of you... but, that is what you see... becoz i feel safe with you... happy? that is why... you see a less tense up image of me... and i don't care what you think... I just want to get alife with things...

dreamzLand : April 6

2005-04-07T10:19:00.000+08:00

last night, i dream of 4 teeth being very shaky... it's those teeth at the sides.. 2 on each side... somewhere at the back... it was freaky and scary... even after i woke up, i can still feel the after effects as it was very real... the feeling...

and i also recall going down to Spotlight Tampines to find mum... lol, anyways, Spotlight tampines will be closing soon... I can still rmemeber in my dream the interior is slightly different from what i see... the counter of the dress dept is slightly smaller... and not everything seems to be the same...

dreamzLand : March 27

2005-03-28T08:42:00.000+08:00

My Dream:

I dreamt of pasting some names of countires outside the SHS corrdor... then VOILA... got caught... even though a lecturer was with me... blehz... well.. i wonder why i was pasting masking tape of cities of the word... lolz... anyways, end up getting detention class.... and i just happily told the lectuer I was well, gonna skip my lunch anyways for slimmming :P

Another dream was about a swim meet amongst all SHS students. Each tut grp was to set 6 people for 3 sets of swimming relayz... Well, as to which team came in first... i ain't sure :P

My Mum's Dream:

I included this today coz... it is related to me.. blehz... she dreamt of the surgeon coming out from the OT telling her that my heart has stopped palpitating... whether it is a good thing... i doubt so... coz she was very worried... well, i wonder... but anyways, will have to visit CGH this Thurs for my Endocrinologist Appointment...

dreamzLand : March 26

2005-03-27T10:06:00.000+08:00

had a wierd dream... about having to promise to score As for my exams... otherwise they will throw away all my stuff on my table... it was very scary... and well, they were suprised that i agreed... but i started tearing... coz i was afrid i might not be able to hit the target... i had promised... so scary...

dreamzLand : March 21 & 22

2005-03-23T09:15:00.000+08:00

it has been quite a few days since i last blogged... on my dreams.. didn't have any dreams... for the past few... :P

which was good... :P Okies, now... just a few days back... on March 21, i had a wierd dream... it's just like those funny dreams of the past... not really worth mentioning... coz i find it just too wierd... to have those dreams occus again and again... with different people involved... :(

anyways... last night... or should i say this morning... i dream of buying a gift for a friend of mine before he flew off... wonders why i had that thought... maybe becoz, it is time i get something for him? wonders... hahaz... his birthday is still 3months away... lolz...

well, that's all for the dreams... :P

dreamzLand : March 18

2005-03-19T19:09:00.000+08:00

I had a dream... the dream of the mentorship camp... the same scene of us being "scolded" by the instructor... well.. it was a repeat of the scene... wonder what's installed for me... why flash back out of the sudden? does it means i miss the mentorship mates a lot...? Beats me... well... i woke at 6am again... wonder why... i crept back to sleep and had decided not to sms till him until i received an sms... wonders why... i keep waking up so early even on weekends when i should be catching up with more sleep... oh well... are we fated? i wonder...

dreamzLand : Mar 17, 2005

2005-03-18T08:42:00.000+08:00

I had a dream... of a child beaning slapped on the head area.... which gives me a flash back ofm y past... however, this is in the scene of a public place... at a train station... however, has yet to happen. This time round, I am at the age of what i am now, and, i was out with dad, aunt and a relative's kid. The boy was misbehaving him self, and well, dad got so furious, he scolded the boy and almost hit him... but well, i stopped him from doing so... and just use my justifications on him...

well, he wanted to hit me, but i used my strength to hold him back... it gives me a flashback in my childhood days... where i was beaten when i misbehaved in school or at home... that has well, all been in the past... dun wish to think about it... though, i have to say... things has changed... everyone at home knows his temper and well, i have grown out of this phase of beatings... however, it still leaves a shadow of hatred in me... which will never really fade off... which is why, sometimes when i go out with friends, i tend to look at the time, and want to go home soo, especially late at night... coz i am scared, i will lose the freedom... and the possibility of the punishments of the yesterday... which, i don't think will ever happen... yet there is always a fear factor...

whatever, has been done in the past is done... i choose not to remember them, yet they come back to haunt me... i choose to forgive... yet, they do not let me forgive the past... why? why? I wonder... do i care? I don't... do i hate my dad... sometimes... now i still hate my parents sometimes... for the past... though now, i still talk to them..., over the years... the bond is getting stronger... yet... still weak...

dreamzLand... Mar 11

2005-03-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

i slept at 1am.. woke up at 6.25am... very suprisingly.. i woke at 6plus... in the moring... then i had a foodie dream... i dream of going to KFC with my cousin... then there was this scene i saw some americans also in the same restaurant... they were placing their orders... it was a comical scene... can't really remember how to describe... then after i placed my order... i woke up...1hr later... i smsed my friend... hahaz... so lame.. but it is always nice to send/receive greetings in the morning...

dreamzLand... Mar 10

2005-03-11T11:10:00.000+08:00

somehow... I slept last night...at 1am without realising it... even as it was that.... i still feel that... something just feels wierd about this sleep... I just sense that something amiss and woke at 3am... lol... with the lights already switched off... little did i know that Arius, Cheryl and Thomas were pming me... lolz... I was kinda lost in translation so to speak... becoz... I just realise that... I had promised to wait for Thomas to turn in before i go zzz... coz i couldn't sleep... well... was basically downloading music and feeling bored... in the end... when i woke a 3am.. as mentioned earlier... i only see ghost online :P Most of my contacts are asleep...

anyways, this morning i woke seconds away from the alarm ring... and well... just couldn't drag myself out of bed...

dreamzLand?

2005-03-10T00:02:00.000+08:00

this is the place where my dreamz of the future are kept... so do not expect and update very often... it is like a dream diary...